It seems that V (BTS) has gone through a very difficult period in terms of mental health, but until now, the male idol has only had the opportunity to share it with fans.
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On November 20, BTS officially returned with the album 'BE (Deluxe Edition)' and quickly received worldwide attention. This is a special music production because all the members of the group contribute to each stage of conceptualization and completion of this album, including music production.
One of the songs that received many compliments is 'Blue & Gray' - the song bearing the mark of V (BTS). Accordingly, the male idol not only participated in composing 'Blue & Gray' but also plans to include it in his first mixtape. However, in the end, people decided to choose this song for 'BE' and helped it reach the fans earlier than planned.
The content of 'Blue & Gray' is filled with sadness, anxiety and even despair. The character in the song is going through a difficult time when everything around is just 'blue and gray', and that person yearns for help, comfort and protection from those around him, to be happier.
Recently in an interview with Weverse Magazine, V personally revealed the context of this special song's creation. However, after reading it, many fans feel touched and even worried when they know that the male idol has experienced mental instability.
Check out the song below:
Below is an excerpt of V's interview when sharing about 'Blue & Gray'.
Q: You seem to have created a melancholy, sad 'Blue & Gray'. I heard that you originally planned to release the song in your mixtape.
V: I wrote 'Blue & Gray' at a time when I was most depressed. At that time, I really wondered if I could continue with my work. Even the fun of the job now seemed like an obligation to do so, and I started living without knowing what my purpose was. 'Where do I go next? I couldn't even see the light at the end of the tunnel ', these thoughts dealt a huge blow to my mentality.
Q: What caused this problem?
V: That's when work has become too much of a challenge. When I'm happy, I want to be dedicated to my work. And when I'm happy, I'll be able to smile and meet the fans, but then suddenly there's so much to do. I'm an easygoing person, you know, the laid-back type. But at that moment it felt like I was overly stretched and started to become unstable. I mean, I have had a really hard time. And then I thought: 'What awaits me in the end? Success is important, but I also want to be happy, so why am I not happy now? ' That was when I started writing 'Blue & Gray'.
Q: So you wrote this song to find your peace of mind?
V: There was a time when I went through things like that. I've endured the toughest times, but I can't just keep that feeling with me. Instead, I use this emotion as a soul-nourishing agent. I kept those feelings up by writing them down on paper. I kept writing it all down, and when I started wanting to write them down as music, I would. After the song was finished, I felt like I made an achievement, and that's why I was able to release 'Blue & Gray'. That is how I can overcome my problems on my own.
After reading V's thoughts, many fans and netizens left encouraging words for the male idol. Some think that V probably went through a really scary period when the work pressure has affected his psychological health. However, he still chose to overcome it himself and even saved it to write music. Many others hope that Big Hit will pay more attention to the psychological health of BTS members because everyone seems to have gone through a difficult period mentally but still has to continue working without being allowed to stop.
Some comments from fans and netizens:
"It seems that V has encountered something mentally unstable. I'm very worried but I'm also glad he overcame them"
"BTS is under a lot of pressure, and people with unstable mentality will be very vulnerable"
"V didn't even know he can work again or not. I feel scared when I think about it"
"BTS is always happy to interact with fans and these things they only share when they get over it. We don't know how hard they were at the time"
"I hope Big Hit will take care of the members 'mental health because they have been working so hard!"