Former AOA member Kwon Mina shared a post on her Instagram account, recounting her story about how she was bullied during her time in AOA and even tried to take her own life.

Mina wrote the following in response to a malicious DM from an anonymous individual telling her to “get lost, bitch.” on her personal Instagram.

“I want to get lost too, but I have to take care of my mom. Ah, I’m gonna start getting so many DMs calling me ‘no brains’. You’re right. I am ‘no brains’ and I’ve never properly learned anything in my life. I had to earn money from a young age because of my family situation. 

After my dad passed away, when I cried in the waiting room there was an unnie who dragged me to the closet, telling me to stop crying because it was ruining the mood, and I tried to tell her that I was scared. I tried to tell her that I was scared of my dad dying. I can’t ever forget what she said to me then. Any other bullying? Any other harsh words? They’re all fine. It was such a scar but we got in the same car afterward so I forced myself to go to sleep, taking nerve relaxers and sleeping pills. I needed to do a good job with my schedules but I felt myself breaking. I even tried to take my own life because of her once.

Honestly, I’m okay even if you people never respect me as an idol or an actress. I know I’m terrible, I’m not good at anything. But I was really happy, and I tried really hard. I still love being in this area of work. I was never stressed about being an idol, and in truth, I never wanted to leave AOA; but because of one person who hated me, I gave up after enduring her bullying for 10 years and at the end of it all, I wanted to turn around and curse at her.

In the end, I gave up AOA. I really had fun promoting as AOA with the other members. But some time ago, that bunnies father passed away, and I felt so sad and strange. At least I know exactly how that feels. When I went to the funeral she came to my crying, telling me she was sorry. It was so unfulfilling, and my heart really broke down.

Everything emptied itself after that. I felt okay, I let go of the blame but by then, I was already too broken. I’m scared. I’m having some time to myself on hiatus now and I knew. I wanted to try learning a few things, maybe try to receive treatment for my depression and anxiety. But it turns out, even during a hiatus a lot of things happen.

I’m so tired. You know how the netizens say things online? How I don’t know who I think I am, no one knows what I’m trying to be, no one wants to see my face or hear me talk and all that, but despite that, it wasn’t like I was born because I wanted to be born, and I have a mouth, I have hands, but I can’t control myself any more either and I need to live for my mom. 

It’s fine if you don’t see me fondly and it’s fine if you don’t pay me any attention; can’t you just leave me alone? Because I get that everything is my fault.” 

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나도 진짜 너무 너무 꺼지고 싶은데 엄마 돌봐야해서..아 또 무뇌라고 연락들 많이 오겠다 맞아요 나 무뇌 맞고 제대로 배운것도 없어 어릴때부터 집안 사정 때문에 돈 벌어야 했거든 아빠 돌아가시고 대기실에서 한번 우니까 어떤 언니가 니 때문에 분위기 흐려진다고 울지말라고 대기실 옷장으로 끌고 가길래 내가 너무 무섭다고 했어 아빠가 곧 죽을거를 생각하니까 난 아직도 그 말 못 잊어 딴 괴롭힘? 딴 욕? 다 괜찮아 상처지만 같은 차 타는 바람에 나중에는 신경안정제랑 수면제 먹고 그냥 나를 재워버렸어 스케줄 제대로 해야하는데 내가 점점 망가지고 있다는 걸 느꼈어 그 언니 때문에 내가 자살시도도 했었거든 그리고 나 아이돌 그리고 배우 인정 안해줘도 괜찮아 진짜 못해 많이 부족하잖아 근데 나는 하면서 너무 행복했고 정말 열심히 했어 정말 사랑하는 직업이야 일로써 스트레스 한번도 안 받았고 솔직히 AOA탈퇴 정말 하기 싫었는데 날 싫어하는 사람 하나 때문에 10년을 괴롭힘 당하고 참다가 솔직히 끝에는 나도 눈 돌아가서 욕 한번이라도 하고 싶을정도였으니.. 결국 AOA도 포기했어 나는 다른 멤버들과의 활동이 재밌었던 애였거든 근데 얼마전에 그 언니 아버지가 돌아가셨어 마음이 너무 아프고 기분이 이상했어 그 아픔 적어도 나는 아니까..장례식장 갔는데 날 보자마저 울면서 미안하다고 하더라 허무하고 무너져 내렸어 마음이..그냥 비워졌어 원망도 사라지고 다 괜찮아졌는데 내가 너무 고장이 나있어서 무서워 공백기..당연히 예상했지 이것 저것 배우거나 우울증이나 공황장애 불안증 치료 하면되겠다 했어 근데 공백기 동안에도 참 많은일들이 생기더라..솔직히 지쳐 맞아 그 네티즌? 인터넷상 사람들이 하는 말처럼 나도 내가 누군지 모르겠고 뭐하는 애인지 모르겠어 꼴보기 싫고 시끄럽고 듣기 싫어도 나도 내가 태어나고 싶어서 태어난거 아니잖아 나도 입이 있고 손이 있고 이제는 나도 내 자신이 컨트롤이 안되고 나 엄마때문에 살아 살아야지..이쁘게 안봐줘도 되구 관심 안줘도 괜찮으니까 조금만..그냥 내버려두면 안될까? 내가 다 잘 못 했으니까

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Then, in a follow up post, Mina continued:

“Why did I write about that unnie in AOA. I knew that my dad was going to pass on after they told him he was in the terminal stage of hi pancreatic cancer.

But at the time, I was afraid of being yelled at by her again. I had a personal acting role I was carrying out too, and we were making a comeback so we had a lot of schedules and  I didn’t want to burden the other members. I had to memorize my lines and smile a lot, so I thought that I shouldn’t think about my dad because I had work to do. I couldn’t even go into his room, because if I went in and saw him just skin and bones in his last stage of cancer, there was no way I wouldn’t cry. My older sister called me and told me that dad couldn’t talk well any more, but he wanted to see me. 

But in my head, I thought, what if I cry during my schedules, what if that unnie yells at me again? I was too young and so I thought I just had to do it that way. I dreaded being scolded more than anything. So I had a chance to visit him more often but I didn’t, and when my dad closed his eyes I let him go. Beside him on the sketchbook he wrote, ‘where’s my daughter?’ so he could show it to the nurse, but I couldn’t go because I was working.

But I’ve been hearing things, about how they let unnie’s family stay in a VIP room, and she cancelled all of her schedules. I hope that’s not the case. Unnie should have endured like a pro too. You’d better not cry, okay? It’ll ruin the mood. You were the one who said why should everyone have to worry because of me. I hope unnie can overcome it too. I can’t ever forget what you said to me, what you did to me, I remember everything, even if it’s fuzzy.

Whenever I remember all of that, I take medication and hang on. But I think the thing with my dad will stay with me forever. To unnie, it was just something you spit out at the spur of the moment but to me, it was a real scar.

At the end, when we had 5 minutes to talk before I left, I told you about it. And then you stared me down and said, ‘I didn’t thin I was such a b**** to say something like that?’ But another member brought up the courage for me and said that unnie did say that. I was so shocked I couldn’t say anything else and thought, ‘Is she even human?’. And that was when we said goodbye. But even now, no one knows, not me or the other members, why did you hate me so much?”

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아 근데 AOA그 언니 이야기 왜 적었냐면 난 아빠 췌장암 말기 선고받고 아빠가 갈거라는 걸 알고 있었는데 그 언니한데 또 혼날까봐 그리고 개인 연기도 하고 있었고, 컴백하고 있어서 스케줄 소화해내고 멤버들한데 피해주기 싫었고 대사도 외우고 웃어야 하는 부분도 많고 그래서 난 아빠 생각에 사로잡히면 안되고 일을 제대로 해야해 라고 생각했고, 아빠 병실에 들어가지도 못했어 췌장암 말기라서 뼈밖에 없는 모습 보니까 눈물이 안날수가 없더라고 언니도 전화오고 아빠도 이제 말을 잘 못하는데 날 찾았대 근데 만약 스케줄 하다가 울면 어떡해 또 저 언니가 뭐라하면 어떡해? 난 그때 나이가 너무 어려서 그렇게 해야되는 줄 알았어 그게 맞는거라고 생각했고 혼나는게 더 싫었어 그래서 더 볼 수 있었는데 못 보고 그렇게 아빠 눈 감았을때 삐 소리 듣고 보고 보냈어 옆에 스케치북에 아빠가 우리 딸 어디있어요? 라고 힘들게 삐뚤 빼뚤 적어서 간호사님한데 보여드렸다는데 그때도 일 하고 있어서 못갔었거든 근데 들리는 말론 언닌 특실 잡아주고 개인 스케줄들도 그렇고 뭐 취소했다는 말 들리던데 아니길바래 프로답게 해 언니도. 울지마 알았지? 분위기 흐려진다며 나 땜에 왜 눈치 봐야하냐며 그랬잖아 언니도 잘 이겨내 꼭. 나는 아직도 그 기억 못 지워 언니가 했던말들 행동들 사실 흐릿해도 전부 기억해 남아있어 그럴때마다 약 먹어가면서 견디고 있어 그치만 아빠때 일은 평생 갈 것 같다 언니는 그냥 뱉은 말이지만 난 정말 상처였던 것 같아 근데 마지막 우리끼리 5분의 시간때 내가 언니한데 얘기했어 그때 그게 상처였다고 그때 언닌 날 째려보며 말했지 내가 그런말 할 정도로 나쁜년이라고는 생각안하는데? 했어 그러자 다른 멤버가 언니 그랬었어 라고 정말 큰 용기내서 얘기해줬었어 난 허탈해서 아무말도 안나왔고 속으로 인간이 맞나? 싶었어 그러고 우리는 안녕했지 나도 솔직히 똑똑한 머리는 아니라서 기억력이 진짜 최악인데 오죽하면 언니는 끝이없다 너무 많지 근데 그냥 저거 하나만 할께 혹시 모르잖아 회사에서 해지계약서 썼는데 위약금 내라고 하면 어떡해 저 다 말 안했어요 괜찮죠? 언니 덕에 난 매일 약 수십알 먹고 왼쪽 손목은 하도 그어서 신경이 나가서 따갑고 저려 근데 엄마보니까 살아야겠더라고 돈도 벌어야해 그래서 열심히 흉터치료 받고있어 아직도 악몽은 꾸지만, 근데 웃긴건 나가기전에 언니 빼고 우리끼리 술 마시면서 맨날 대화 나눴거든 근데도 우리 다 아직도 모른다? 날 싫어한 이유가 뭐야?

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After Mina specified that her alleged “bullying” assailant’s father recently passed away, some netizens suspected that the individual in question may be AOA’s Jimin

>>> See more: AOA’s Jimin, Her Father Has Passed Away

FNC Entertainment has yet to respond to the accusations, as they are not picking up phone calls from media outlets.

After that, AOA’s member Jimin response to Mina’s bullying allegations by a post story on her Instagram account, a black picture including word “Fiction” .

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As of this writing, Jimin’s story on Instagram was deleted, resulting in Mina uploading not one, but two other posts on it.

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Read on for the full translation of the posts by Mina.

“I only revealed one out of 1000000000000 things. Go ahead and say it’s fiction. Unnie will receive punishment for it, don’t be like this. There are witnesses and evidence. I’m sorry but there’s no need to hear from both sides. I have nothing that I did wrong. Right at the end, I was getting my hairline done but the numbing hadn’t worn off yet so I called in advance to say I was going to be late to the dance practice room. But upon hearing unnie‘s voice, I felt that you would kick up a fuss again so I couldn’t even go to the dance practice room. On the day itself, I also attempted suicide. I think that was the largest thing I did wrong. So, now I’m finished revealing all the things I’ve did wrong. Unnie, should I reveal more stories or not? There’s so many things that it’s annoying to write it all down. You said that it’s all fiction but if you have a conscience… Why should I erase it? Go ahead and say it’s fiction – there will be quite a number of people around you that will be dumbfounded. Ah, but I guess you said you don’t remember that too and that you’re not such a terrible b*tch? Wow, it must be great to be able to erase your memories so well. They say those that speak badly of someone doesn’t remember it anyway. Please erase my memories too, unnie. Please, please. Then again, unnie wouldn’t feel guilt even looking at my wrist, right? Perhaps you’re thinking, say it to my face.”

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나 1000000000000개 중에 1개 이야기 했어 소설이라고 해봐 언니 천벌 받아 그러지마 증인이 있고 증거가 있어 미안하지만 양쪽말 들을게 없어 내가 잘못한게 없거든 맨 마지막에 댄스실 헤어라인 심고 싶어서 했다가 마취 덜 풀려서 늦어가지고 미리 전화 했는데 언니 목소리 듣자 마자 언니가 또 완전 난리가 날것 같아서 댄스실 가지도 못했어 그리고 그날도 자살시도를 했지 이게 가장 큰 잘 못 이다 자 이제 내 잘못은 다 이야기 했어 언니 썰은 풀어 말어? 너무 많아서 적기 귀찮아 근데 소설 이라는 말은 언니 양심이 있으면..왜 지워 언니 그냥 소설이라고 해봐 주변에 어이없어 할 사람 꽤 있을텐데 아 하긴 그때도 기억 안나고 뭐 그런말할 나쁜년은 아닌거 같은데? 라고 했지? 와 기억 잘 지워져서 좋겠다 원래 욕한사람은 잘 기억못한다더라 내 기억도 제발 좀 지워줘 언니 제발 제발 하긴 언닌 내 손목보고도 죄책감 못 느낄껄? 내 얼굴보고 욕하지 싶다 아마도

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And second post:

“Unnie, it’s way too scary of a story to call it fiction. I went for scar treatments 3~4 times so it got lighter. But unnie, my memories aren’t fading. I’m going crazy each and every day. Jimin unnie – laws? Lawsuits? I don’t have the money to do that. I can’t. Mental health damage compensation? I don’t need it all and I have no intention of getting it. I just feel that it is so, so unfair that I am being ruined by you. It hurts and I’m having a hard time. What I hope is just for you to admit you did wrong, in front of me. Just one sincere apology and that’s it. You who tortured me is living way too well…  I’m suffering every day just by opening my eyes. But I need to be the breadwinner for my family. Do admit your fault and apologize. Let me have some release as well, hmm?”

FNC Entertainment has yet to respond to any allegations with their official stance.